My Life: That Of a Typical Teenager Or Not?

Just when I thought my life couldn't get any harder or more stressful, it did. My dad is suing my mom to get the alimony reduced to a very minimal amount each month, and he's not even going to help put me through college! Yes, I thought my life couldn't get any worse before the news, but obviously, it can. Actually, life seemed to be getting better before that bombshell was dropped in our laps. Now I don't even talk to him at all. I ignore his texts, calls, and other methods of attempting to contact me. I'm just so pissed at him, even though it's been a month and a half since I was told of his plans. I know that if I get any more pissed at him (which I usually do in our conversations, don't ask), I'll blow a fuse and go off on him and scream. I'm avoiding him to preserve my sanity! How's that for irony? A girl's father making her insane.

Why Am I Still Here?

There are times when I've thought to myself, "Why am I still here on Earth? Life sucks, and nothing's going to make it better." Especially when my mom screams at me incessantly. I have an Xacto knife hidden away in my nightstand drawer, but I haven't used it. There have been times when I've wanted to pull it out, though. Like tonight. My mom's pissed for some reason, my grade in one of my classes dropped slightly, and I haven't cleaned my room to her satisfaction, so she took prom away! I spent over $200 of my own money that I saved from Christmas and my birthday, and for nothing. Sometimes I want to yell that I hate my life, and I just want to die. People always say, "Oh, you're just upset. You don't mean it." But a lot of times, I do mean it! No one knows the kind of hell I've been through since my parents divorced when I was 10. Sometimes I think the world would be a better place without me.   

Exes: Can't Live With Them, Can Live Without Them

What is it about exes that always gets on our nerves? Is it the obsession with reconnecting, the grief of losing a relationship, or the loss of a companion? Whatever it is, it can be very hard to live with. My ex contacted me a few weeks ago, and we were supposed to get together for lunch. But then I discovered that he had lied to his mom because she wouldn't let him see me. When she found out that we were dating a month and a half into our relationship, she spent the rest of the time of our relationship not trying to get to know me or even just being happy for us. No, she didn't like me because I'm not Salvadorean and I'm not skinny. She began to badmouth me, and was trying to convince him to break up with me. He's the youngest of three, and a momma's boy. He eventually was persuaded by her, and he began to treat me horribly. She would call me names and insult me, and in his way of trying to break up with me, he would repeat them. I eventually got fed up with it, and I broke it off. Now, he's trying to get back with me. My answer is simple, straight, and to the point: NO WAY!!!